Week 4

Alright so have officially entered into week 4, on my second job attempt. Which is much better than the first attempt, minus the fact that I'm not working a full forty hour work week so therefore the ole' pay check ain't quite as sweet as I wish it was. Bonus! I do get tips, granted they aren't super huge but any little bit helps at this point. I think the hardest issue that I'm dealing with is not buying anything and/or breaking that "I need to buy things" mentality. I mean it's not like I'm going back to school, so I don't need new shoes, new pencils and the must have new lunch pail. Honestly I really don't have any needs. I gots pants to cover my a...argh bum and I got shoes for my feet so I can't really complain too much. Also the fact that the good old state of New York taxes you on every material good you can imagine keeps my credit card in my wallet. Hopefully in a few months I will be able to report lots of savings.

Onto matters of the mind. I recently eagerly went to see Eat, Pray, Love the movie after finally reading it this past April. I have to say I was quite disappointed. Not in Julia Roberts, she always is good well for the most part her crying in Steel Magnolias wanted to make me rip my eyeballs out but anyway. I just thought that the movie didn't do the book justice. Which I suppose is a hard task, this book has become a sort of bible for 20 something females all over the place and to bring that to life would be quite difficult. I just felt like it left something lacking. I mean this book made me re-evaluate things and want to go on a journey of self discovery not unlike Liz Gilbert. Now don't get me wrong there were parts that I did enjoy. I liked the analysis of eating the pizza in Napoli and how Liz askes Sophie, if in all her years of sleeping with men had any asked her to leave once her clothes were off. Obviously the answer was no. This I thought was worth mentioning since as a society we put way too much emphasis on how we look and all the things that we see as wrong with ourselves when we should instead celebrate all our curves. Granted this is always much easier to say than practice but then again these are just my meandering thoughts which doesn't mean too much.

Alright that is enough for now, peace out sauerkraut.

Three Weeks Down

What can I say, it's been three weeks and have I had a huge epiphany? Um in a word....no. I have on the other hand realized how important it is to own up to your decisions. I think one of my biggest issues is that I don't like to disappoint or piss people off. Basically I would rather stay in a sticky situation and just be pissed off on a daily basis then say "enough is enough, I'm done". My most reason encounter with this issue was quitting the cookie factory after one week of work. As my usual self, I didn't want to quit or upset anyone. Well push came to shove and it simply wasn't worth the aggravation. No idea if this helps me or anyone else but whoop there it is.

Be Right or Do the Right Thing..

Alright so I've been meaning to put this one out into the ether but keep forgetting so hear it is. Only a mear two weeks after it first making an appearance into my life. It's something that my dad said to me a few weeks ago. In life you have to decide to either be right or do the right thing.

So here are my thoughts on the issue.. I think that too often in life we have the desire to be right, almost to a fault. We would rather sever relationships with people all in the name of being right. Well damn I say why can't we all just try to do the right thing once in a while. Anyway just something to ponder.

Lessons Learned

Alright so I'm two full weeks in..... annnnnnd I have since then started a new job and henceforth will be quitting said job tomorrow. Ya here's the lesson learned, don't just take the first job that comes your way because you might just end up cutting out 3000 small cookies in two days. Recall if you will the fairly famous scene from I Love Lucy where Lucy is working in a candy factory and she can't keep up with the candies coming down the shoot. Now replace Lucy with moi and the candies with cookies and that was my Wednesday. Jealous much?! Oh yea I bet you are. So needless to say I now have the daunting task of quitting my job one week in, fun Friday if I do say so myself.
Other than that things are pretty good around the house a few little scuttles here and there. As for the money saving adventure living at home has reduced my living expenses. No rent, no utilities, no internet, no cable. So hopefully once I start seeing some money coming in I will start seeing some debts fall!


Over and out :)

Reality Sets In

One week down, way to many left to count. Hit a rough patch tonight with my folks. Fight numero uno, which I think is mostly a result of the fact that reality has set in and it's starting to sink in that I am moved home for an indefinite amount of time. In a way I feel like my life has been put on hold while I make the necessary changes to continue my life. I know that's not the case but in a way that's simply how I feel. Anyway I do have one like bit of wisdom that was passed along to me from Papa Bear. In life you have the choice to either be right or do the right thing. Okay stop....... think about it for a minute......... Have you ever got into a disagreement with someone where neither party is willing to admit that they are wrong?! I have to say that I would think everyone has at one point or another. Anyway just something to think about.

Lesson #1 - Admitting you may have a problem

So not unlike many other people in there 20's and maybe 30's I like to spend money that I don't have. I never fully learned budgeting. Don't get me wrong I have held a job and worked pretty much ever since I was 14 so I've been working for around 12 years. Damn and yet still I like many others have debt. My main goal for the next year is to become more financially stable. With the support of my parents my expenses will pretty much consist of my car payment (approximately $227.74), my car insurance (roughly $72 a month) and my credit card payment. Alright now here is the nitty gritty I owe approximately $3000 on my current credit card. I also need to pay my parents back for old credit card debt dating back to High School. Reason #412 why you should not just give your high school student a credit card. At least with out explaining the importance of only spending what you can actually afford. This has been a hard lesson to learn but I have faith that I can turn things around for myself and become a better person in the long run.

The Wheel is broken

Here's the deal, I don't want to use this as my own personal ranting zone... but i have to take a minute and express my utter distaste for the human race. I just feel like somewhere along the line we've gotten it wrong as a general population. The lack of consideration for our fellow man and the earth in which we currently are hanging out. As I'm driving home from the Post Office today (which btw is a whole different rant) I see the girl in front of me dump her iced coffee out the window of her car, directly onto the pavement and then tap her cigarette ashes out on top of them. Uh seriously?!?! You couldn't wait the 5 minutes till you get home to dump them?!? Granted I realize not everyone is going to drive fuel efficient vehicles or compost our waste but is it too much to ask that we all try just a liiiiiiitle bit harder? And as the following rant states the earth will be fine, we are the ones that are f'ed. Anyway enjoy le rant

Here's a little quote from George Carlin's rant on "The Planet is Fine"

"We’re so self-important. So self-important. Everybody’s going to save something now. “Save the trees, save the bees, save the whales, save those snails.” And the greatest arrogance of all: save the planet. What? Are these fucking people kidding me? Save the planet, we don’t even know how to take care of ourselves yet. We haven’t learned how to care for one another, we’re gonna save the fucking planet?
I’m getting tired of that shit. Tired of that shit. I’m tired of fucking Earth Day, I’m tired of these self-righteous environmentalists, these white, bourgeois liberals who think the only thing wrong with this country is there aren’t enough bicycle paths. People trying to make the world save for their Volvos. Besides, environmentalists don’t give a shit about the planet. They don’t care about the planet. Not in the abstract they don’t. Not in the abstract they don’t. You know what they’re interested in? A clean place to live. Their own habitat. They’re worried that some day in the future, they might be personally inconvenienced. Narrow, unenlightened self-interest doesn’t impress me.
Besides, there is nothing wrong with the planet. Nothing wrong with the planet. The planet is fine. The PEOPLE are fucked. Difference. Difference. The planet is fine. Compared to the people, the planet is doing great. Been here four and a half billion years. Did you ever think about the arithmetic? The planet has been here four and a half billion years. We’ve been here, what, a hundred thousand? Maybe two hundred thousand? And we’ve only been engaged in heavy industry for a little over two hundred years. Two hundred years versus four and a half billion. And we have the CONCEIT to think that somehow we’re a threat? That somehow we’re gonna put in jeopardy this beautiful little blue-green ball that’s just a-floatin’ around the sun?
The planet has been through a lot worse than us. Been through all kinds of things worse than us. Been through earthquakes, volcanoes, plate tectonics, continental drift, solar flares, sun spots, magnetic storms, the magnetic reversal of the poles…hundreds of thousands of years of bombardment by comets and asteroids and meteors, worlwide floods, tidal waves, worldwide fires, erosion, cosmic rays, recurring ice ages…And we think some plastic bags, and some aluminum cans are going to make a difference? The planet…the planet…the planet isn’t going anywhere. WE ARE!
We’re going away. Pack your shit, folks. We’re going away. And we won’t leave much of a trace, either. Thank God for that. Maybe a little styrofoam. Maybe. A little styrofoam. The planet’ll be here and we’ll be long gone. Just another failed mutation. Just another closed-end biological mistake. An evolutionary cul-de-sac. The planet’ll shake us off like a bad case of fleas. A surface nuisance.
You wanna know how the planet’s doing? Ask those people at Pompeii, who are frozen into position from volcanic ash, how the planet’s doing. You wanna know if the planet’s all right, ask those people in Mexico City or Armenia or a hundred other places buried under thousands of tons of earthquake rubble, if they feel like a threat to the planet this week. Or how about those people in Kilowaia, Hawaii, who built their homes right next to an active volcano, and then wonder why they have lava in the living room.
The planet will be here for a long, long, LONG time after we’re gone, and it will heal itself, it will cleanse itself, ’cause that’s what it does. It’s a self-correcting system. The air and the water will recover, the earth will be renewed, and if it’s true that plastic is not degradable, well, the planet will simply incorporate plastic into a new pardigm: the earth plus plastic. The earth doesn’t share our prejudice towards plastic. Plastic came out of the earth. The earth probably sees plastic as just another one of its children. Could be the only reason the earth allowed us to be spawned from it in the first place. It wanted plastic for itself. Didn’t know how to make it. Needed us. Could be the answer to our age-old egocentric philosophical question, “Why are we here?” Plastic…asshole.
So, the plastic is here, our job is done, we can be phased out now. And I think that’s begun. Don’t you think that’s already started? I think, to be fair, the planet sees us as a mild threat. Something to be dealt with. And the planet can defend itself in an organized, collective way, the way a beehive or an ant colony can. A collective defense mechanism. The planet will think of something. What would you do if you were the planet? How would you defend yourself against this troublesome, pesky species? Let’s see… Viruses. Viruses might be good. They seem vulnerable to viruses. And, uh…viruses are tricky, always mutating and forming new strains whenever a vaccine is developed. Perhaps, this first virus could be one that compromises the immune system of these creatures. Perhaps a human immunodeficiency virus, making them vulnerable to all sorts of other diseases and infections that might come along. And maybe it could be spread sexually, making them a little reluctant to engage in the act of reproduction.
Well, that’s a poetic note. And it’s a start. And I can dream, can’t I? See I don’t worry about the little things: bees, trees, whales, snails. I think we’re part of a greater wisdom than we will ever understand. A higher order. Call it what you want. Know what I call it? The Big Electron. The Big Electron…whoooa. Whoooa. Whoooa. It doesn’t punish, it doesn’t reward, it doesn’t judge at all. It just is. And so are we. For a little while."